More Than a Cageful of Tears

Here I am again. My story never ends, or rather my agony never ends. That day, everything seems like a turning point for me. That day, one fine couple came and see me. Immediately they had fall in love with me. They were saying something like 'adopting' me. I was over the cloud nine. How I wish to have a family, to call 'papa' and 'mama' when I learn to speak one day. Some one would care for me, caress me, hug me and play with me.

Alas! Everything was like a dream.


Being born prematurely into this world, it has taken toll on my body. Some part of my system is imperfect. Few weeks back, I don't know what the 'big people' are talking about, but I overheard that they want to do something to my body. Something like 'surgery'. Something like putting me to sleep and then open me up. That idea sounds scary. What will happen to me then? But don't harm me, please!

That night, an angel came to me and spoke to me. She said the family supposed to adopt me changed their mind. This is because I am not perfect. She said I need to be brave. To endure what lays ahead. And I need to be strong! I cried that night. Knowing that the fragile dream is already broken to million pieces, I am back to square one. Again, I ponder this question. Being born like this, is it my mistake? Why I am subjected to so much of human cruelty? Why am I being so unwanted? The angel left. Again, I went to sleep with all the questions unanswered.

A Cageful of Tears

My little cage... This is where I live. This is where I know my world. No love. A small cage to call home, but large enough to notice what is missing in my life. I maybe small, I may not able to speak with words, but I can communicate through my eyes. I need love. Just like the other children. There are a lot of things I don't know, bit I know I am lack of love.

Where are you, Dad? Where are you when I need your hug the most? I don't even know how your face looked like. Are you tall? Are you warm? Are you a handsome guy? Are you a caring person? Where are you, Mom? There are times I cry myself to sleep, where are your warm hand to comfort my pain? I had no more tears, I have no love. All I have is the nurses that attend to my daily needs, feeds me, baths me and caress me. But they are not my mom. Do I have a brother? Or a sister, Mom? Are they with you in the family? Why I can't be with you? I want you, mom.

Every morning, I wake up to nurses that want to give me medications. It was bitter for sure. I don't want to take it. But who am I to object? All I can do is cry. To my left, there is another boy. I don't know who he is, what is his name, and where is he from. But for sure, there is no mom and dad around him. Does he suffers from the same fate as I am? I don't know. Does he need love as much as I do? Maybe.

I don't know why I am here. If I was so unwanted, why do you care to make me in the first place? Am I a mistake in your life? Am I a burden? Do I disrupt the way you live? I have no answer to all of the questions. If I could only speak, I wish to tell you, Mom, that I will be an obedient girl. I will not disturb you, I promised! But it's all too late. You had abandoned me. Here I am, with other 'brothers' and 'sisters' which I don't even know. They don't care for me like my real brothers and sisters. They don't want to play with me. At night, we slept together in a crowded bed. Sometimes I can't even breath. Sometimes I lost my belongings. But I can't blame them. There are simply too many of my brothers and sisters. That's why I was sick. Thats why 'they' bring me to my cage here.

My sad story had just began...

This is a tragic in real life. The message of the story is to practice contraception. Help reduce the number of unwanted child. You can make the difference.